denny-1's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- decisions, decisions “Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen” RW Emerson I’ve left the old life that I thought was my reality. It was a lie. A lie lived within the hopeful fantasy of what could have been, what would never be, what fatefully has taken seven years to end. When I look at him I see what it was that I loved. What I still love, in another way. A way that says, “I loved you once.” My path has changed… I’ve meet the mate my soul has been searching for…almost 4 months ago. I remember seeing him for the first time…while working a trade show. He almost immediately said, “I’d like to get to know you.” My response left my lips before my mind or body could stop, “sure.” Immediately I knew, I’m in trouble now… With fear and angst I scrambled to change. The evening was planned, dinner, drinks, then to a party to meet the man that my gut told me I had to meet. There was no sign of him anywhere. Disappointment. More wine… Later that evening … my ‘group’ ended up at an after party. It must have been about 3 in the morning. Instinctively I didn’t want to leave…half of the ‘group’ headed for the door, myself and the ‘sha sha’ stayed. Ten minutes later he appeared. “Can you dance?” I boldly asked…he smiled a cocky little smile and turned to the ‘sha sha’ and said... “did she just ask me if I could dance?”…he proceeded to the tiny dance floor to move the make shift barriers to make room for what was to come next… I was tossed around like a Caesar salad. I didn’t know that anyone could swing a six-foot blond around with such ease. At one point I thought for sure I’d be on my head…when the sweat overcame me, I knew it was time for a rest. …he is a professionally trained dancer…10 points. When we started talking, I couldn’t leave his eyes. I had felt again…something that I hadn’t done in so long. I couldn’t leave. I had to stay. Nothing else happened. I went back to his room. Nothing else happened. He wrapped his arms around me, and that was it. Not a day has passed that I haven’t thought about this man. It has been decided, now it’s the universe’s responsibility to make it happen. 9:06 p.m. - 2005-11-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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